Feelings of silence

Feelings of silence

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As soon as I came out at the end of the varsity class, I saw that the sky was covered with thick black clouds. It looks like it will rain heavily. I like the weather very much though. But as soon as I hurried home, it started to rain.

This is Reh! I didn't bring an umbrella. So there is no further profit. I went to varsity again.

Wondering where to go. Suddenly I thought, hey why not go to class? Whatever you think, do it.

But when I went to class, I was more surprised than surprised. Of course I'm getting a smile too! Seeing a girl cry though a boy like me is not supposed to get a smile. Still can not suppress a smile!

- Kiri Aroni, why are you crying?

Somehow I went to Aroni with a smile and asked.

Aroni is looking at me with surprised eyes. Because usually no one talks to Aroni! Even after two years of classes together, I never talked to him! Of course, many people try to get along with her because she is the daughter of a rich man. But none of them are Arani's true friends.

- You know, Turya, Raj has told me a lot of bad things! What would I do now?

By this time I had found the meaning of Arani's cry. Raj is the smartest boy in our class. In conversation, no one can be equal to him in behavior. And also very rich.

I have been watching Aroni Raj since the first day of varsity. Raj is not paying attention to him, on the contrary, it can be said that it is not. She is doing it with him as she wishes. Aroni does all the assignments in the class. Even then, Raj abused the girl badly. Only Aruni Bokasoka says unsmart a girl. Even Raj can!

Raj, however, cannot be blamed. He likes Arpa, the most beautiful girl in our class. Orpa and Raj are often seen hanging out together. Even then I see Aruni has not given up!

- What did Raj say to you today?

- I told Raj today about my mind, my feelings. But do you know what he told me?

Aroni started sobbing again.

- Don't say that! Why are you doing so much drama?

- He also said, have you ever seen an owl? Go to the mirror and see, then you will see! He and his friends all laughed together.

Aroni started crying again. I looked at him and smiled and said,

- Do you really know what happened? We all always run after the golden deer. I extend my hand towards that which will never happen to me. Hold on to me, I ate a crush on Orper from the first day of varsity. Then slowly as the day went on, I realized by myself that there was no point in running after him. That's why no feeling works with him anymore.

--But I really love that Raj. I can't think of anything but him ..

I couldn't stop laughing anymore. I smiled and said,

--Then you have to change like Madame Fully. If you don't like Orpar, Raj won't even look back at you ..

I saw Aruni's eyes shining in my words! Asked me,

--How do I change myself? Don't say!

My smile is not stopping this time. Who knew that the girl would really think of my fun?

After laughing for a long time, I said with a very serious look,

- You have to change your gate up! Your famous thick framed glasses and this very simple look, everything needs to be changed.

This time I looked at Aroni and said,

- Your face is fine, your skin color is also good. But you are not a little conspiracy. And why do you braid with such long hair? In fact, you are a famous box!

- Well, what does it take to change these?

This time I said with a more serious look,

--Psychiatrist and fashion designer!

This time my smile did not accept any obstacle. I laughed out loud.

--Psychiatrist and fashion designer? What will they do?

--They will change your stupid look and look stupid. What a fool!

The rain has stopped. So I didn't want to sit there and listen to the girl's silly talk anymore. Leaving Aroni there in a worried state like a fool, I left laughing.

A few days later.

Aroni is not following Raj now, but behind me. And everyone is looking at us and smiling. I feel like I hit the ground with my head in the hole like an ostrich! I don't understand what to do.

Everyone in the class thinks Aroni has left Raj and caught me. Sumon just sat down and said,

- Turya, you have made a great profit, my friend!

--Why dude?

- Hey boy, eat sweets first!

--Because if not, how can I eat sweets?

- Hey boy, I beat up such a rich girl, now you are sohaga in gold!

--Who is rich again?

--Hey glasses of our class, Aroni!

- Exclude nonsense. I went.

Not to say he ran away, but the rest of the class? How to escape from them? What should I tell them?

Aroni came to me again today. I did not escape today. Whatever happens, I face him.

- What do you want?

- I call you this time, does it not even enter your ears? You put cotton in your ears?

--I can hear well. Tell me directly what to say.

- To put it bluntly, I've been following you for so long!

- Don't say that!

- Tell me about the psychiatrist and fashion designer you mentioned.

- Tell me first, if I help you in this matter, will you help me in this matter?

- Well done.

--Listen, what I've understood so far is that you lack smartness in everything. You need a psychiatrist to change your movements and a fashion designer to change your get-up. That's what I said that day.

Somehow I explained something to Aroni. Because now I need to stay away from him and avoid the annoying laughter of my classmates.

Aruni heard me and said,

- I understand that. I have a psychiatrist I know. But where do I find a fashion designer?

This time I took out a card of my acquaintance from my pocket and handed it to Aroni. I always keep the cards of all my acquaintances in my pocket.

Aroni looked at me and smiled a little. I stared in amazement at his smile for so long. The girl's smile is very beautiful! Absolutely like going to the chest. I stared at Aroni in fascination, suddenly heard her saying,

- Kiri, aren't you saying something?

I came back to reality and said,

- What should I say?

--I was asking what I was talking about to help you. What's the matter

- Oh, yes. The thing is, you can't come to varsity in front of me this year. I will talk on the phone if I need to, but I can't talk in front of everyone. You see, everyone is spreading rumors about us, it will hurt you.

- All right. Anything else?

- That's all I have to do.

I handed over my mobile number to Aroni.

Suddenly at night I saw a message on my mobile from an unknown number. It says-

'Do you really think I can change? -Aroni'.

Why is there so much love for him. I think I give courage to the girl. He needs courage at this moment. I sent him a message with courage, 'I believe, one day you will change yourself and easily take place in the mind of the king. Then you will see, not you, the king will follow you! '

Aroni replied, "I needed the courage of a good friend like you in this time of danger, Ray."

From the next day, I was surprised to see that a girl wearing a burqa gave attendance when Sir Aroni's role was called in the class. Understood, so as not to meet me, so Aruni started wearing a burqa! I smiled a lot back home that day. Such a simple girl I have never seen in my life!

A few days later, I see that Aruni is not mixing with anyone else! It is becoming different from everyone else. Tinni is his very best friend. Asking him, he said angrily,

- Are you talking about Madame Fully? We haven't known him so well for so long that he is so smart! Do you know what happened?

- What happened?

--Aroni came that day and told us that she would change herself and become Madame Fully! What shall we say? I am rolling with laughter. I said, don't even try to do what is never possible, repent. And you will be the change? Have you seen your face in the mirror? Do you know what he said then?

- What did you say?

- He also said that neither we nor any of his bad time friends. He went away crying! The girl is one.

I sighed when I heard Tinni's words. There is nothing left to understand, Aroni is sacrificing everything to change herself! Why is it that Aroni is upset at the thought that from now on she will have to walk all alone?

After one year.

So fast that I did not know how a year passed! I have had a very busy time this year. Of course, even in this busy time, why did I think of Arani again and again! Her simplicity, the sweet smile she noticed at first, her silly nonsense, everything came to mind again and again. Thinking about the whole year of loneliness of Aroni, why did I fall in love with her.

This is not the one year that communication with Arani was completely cut off. He has often been investigated, not directly. By text. I gave him courage, I tried to overcome his frustration. Sometimes I even tried to make him laugh by saying funny things. Aroni also used to message me if I had any problem.

Varsity is closed today. So I was going out in the afternoon to do tuition, suddenly I saw Arani's message on my mobile. Written there-

'A year from now, you shouldn't have any problem meeting or talking to me directly!'

I wrote 'no' in the reply and sent it. After that no message is real!

Two days later.

Today I went to varsity and saw a new girl came to our class! But how a new student can be admitted in the middle of a varsity course did not cross my mind. And I can't even remember the look of this new girl!

Everyone is looking at this girl with great interest. Everyone may be wondering the same question, who is this smart girl that has beaten our class Arpa!

When Sir came to class calling for the roll, everyone was eagerly waiting for the girl's roll. The girl gave attendance to call the role of Sir Aroni! Everyone stared in amazement. And I noticed for so long, yes, this is that aroni! No matter what she changes, her appearance has not changed.

At the end of the class I was going out, I saw Aruni calling me from behind.

--This trumpet, wait a minute.

I turned around and said,

- Tell me what to say.

- I'll go home with you. Can't get me home?

I looked around and saw that everyone was looking at me like they did a year ago. But in his eyes, there is no more irony like before, there is violence.

I am going to say something to Aroni, at that moment I see, Raj is calling Aroni! Aroni almost pretended not to hear and dragged me away.

From the following days, Aruni was with me all the time! Everyone in the class now wants to make him a friend, wants to mix with him, but he doesn't care about anyone. Many of them have proposed to him. But he stays with me all the time like eighteen. And everyone looks at me with jealous eyes. Of course I like it! Why do I think sometimes, if he would stick with me like this forever! But I handled myself immediately. It's never going to happen. I belong to a middle class family, and Aroni has changed herself for the sake of Raj. He will like the king, he will never like me.

After three weeks.

Raj has not had a chance to say anything to Aroni for so long. Because when Arani called me, she almost ran away with me! Today Raj is no longer tolerated. Before Aruni came out, Raj came out and stood outside. As soon as Arani came out, Raj took her hand and said,

- Come with me.

Aroni said, I will go but the trumpet will go with me!

Raj grabbed my hand and pulled me to where Aroni was supposed to go. Then he said to the king,

- Now tell me what to say, you have to say it with the trumpet in front of you.

Raj looked at me angrily for a while and then said,

- I love you very much. Do you still love me like before

At first Aroni did not listen to Raj's words. But after much pleading from the king, Aroni finally agreed.

I then returned home. But I discovered myself in a strange feeling! I was happy that Aroni fell in love with Raj, and it was as if trouble was eating away at me. I felt like I was lost! Everything looks very empty. Did I fall in love with Aroni the day I first noticed her sweet smile? But now I understand what will happen? I have not understood myself for so long! Everything that has happened has already happened. It's all over for me now!

I see Aroni going out with Raj every day now. Don't give me time, don't. He stays with me all the time in class, and with Raj after class. But I always think Aroni's time with me is cut short! I still talk to Aroni every day through messages. He often tells me to fall in love or get married after seeing a beautiful girl. But I'm stuck in the middle of it. Can I ever tell her that Aruni is my first and true love? Or will I slowly exhaust myself by holding on to myself?

A year later.

Today is February 14th. Everyone is finding happiness in the midst of their love today! But I am going to Aruni's house at Aruni's invitation. He has invited everyone today. Aroni's parents are pressuring her to get married. So she called everyone today so that she could announce her relationship with Raj in front of everyone. I didn’t want to go first. Do I need to sprinkle more salt on my cut? But in the end I decided to go at Aruni's request.

I went to Arani's house and got a push. I have rarely seen such a beautiful tidy house! As I was walking around the house, I suddenly saw Aroni. He looks so beautiful that I can't take my eyes off him!